Monday, May 11, 2015

Sometimes I have to shake my head

We attended Bill's brother's funeral on Saturday. It was a sad occasion, but Bill vowed to stay strong, and he put up a good front until the very end when he was asked to be a pall bearer. He had to place a rose on top the casket as it was placed into the hearse. He shed a tear, tried to choke it back. I wrapped my arms around him and he released a sob, then did his best to recover, chastising himself for being emotional. Breaks my heart that guys aren't to "feel."
I cried a lot Saturday, and so on Sunday before my son and his family arrived on Mother's Day, I definitely needed foundation makeup under my eyes. I stood in the bathroom, looking in the mirror at my pathetic image. I dabbed the make-up sponge into the pot of makeup, then I swiped it gently under my eyes. The first swipe didn't do the trick, so I dabbed again. And again. And again. And again. I thought, Gee I must have cried a lot! It's not even concealing my white bags.
After a fifth swipe I looked into the palm of my hand and noted that I had been swiping the lid!


Sioux Roslawski said...

Linda--I wish more boys were taught that it was okay for them to cry.

I am so sorry for Bill's loss.

Val said...

So sorry to hear about Bill's brother.

Both my husband and my brother-in-law the ex-mayor let those tears flow at my mom's funeral. So maybe there's hope for my boys' generation, seeing that it's okay to express emotion.

jabblog said...

Hee hee - sounds like me!

Sad to hear that your brother-in-law has travelled on - life's too short, sometimes.

Pat Wahler said...

So sorry for your loss, Linda. Sounds like you've had a rough few days.

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Lisa Ricard Claro said...

So sorry for your loss, Linda. Considering the week you had, it's no wonder your mind wasn't on the makeup. Prayers for you and Bill.

Susan said...

Oh Linda. Swiping the lid is something I would do!

So sad for the loss of Bill's brother. You are right. Some men think it's unmanly to cry. I like a man who cries, myself. Shows his human side.

Condolences to you and all your family. Susan

Tammy said...

I'm so sorry for your family's loss. I'd say you've earned any eye bags. Best to both of you.

Connie said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so sad that men think they aren't allowed to cry.